The story of US

She says...

1st of February 2003. It all started from here. It was around 4:45 AM, my alarmed rang, awakening me from deep slumber...I was about to text my friends and tell them to go ahead and go without me…I’m really not used to waking up early in the morning… but on a split second, I realized that it’s now or never. I was always on a venture on what I really want to do with my life until Rowers Club came into my world. These are bunch of yuppies who seek adventure in the waters of Manila

My first day went well…with all the body aches and pain. The guys invited us again for the next day’s adventure, we were having second thought about it (right, Aubrey…Hehehe!) but then again…maybe we can try it one more time...

3rd of February 2003. The morning went fine…after the training, they gather around for a little chat, going through their plans of joining an international competition to be held in Australia. He was there. On his bike. Butting in, in every opportunity he can. I asked my friend…sino ba yun? Ang epal?! (whispering lang, bago eh!). And then I forgot about him. Then we went to Mc Donald’s (ang headquarters) and ate breakfast. He and his bestfriend (Harold) introduced themselves. He asked me, anong name mo...I told him, Lheng…Hindi ata ako narinig…Len ba? LHENG! Ahh, lheng! Hi, ako si Ian. Hello! End of story. After that, Art and Jhon (few of the many na very accommodating, lalo na sa mga bago…Hehehe!) invited us to freshen up in the latter’s house. And so we went…When we were already at the Mandaluyong bridge, Jhon was surprised seeing Ian on the side of the road…This is not the usual him, he said. After training, he always goes directly home…but he was there. On his bike again…waiting for us…

Not minding him at all, I went through my stuff and hurried, coz I’m also meeting some of my friends for my inaanak’s birthday…And when I was about to leave…He asked me kung pede daw sumabay. I told him, I will be riding the boat so my traveling time would be short because I’m already late. He just shrug it of and said, Eh di isasasakay ko yung bike ko sa bangka. And so he did, He asked for my number and then I asked back…baket?! I was about to give him my “yeah, whatever” attitude but decided against it…I just don’t know why. Wala lang, he answered. Ok, I replied.

So, we went to our separate ways and immediately after arriving at my destination, my mobile started to beep…unstop. It was him. My friends were already asking whose texting me because I was on my mobile the whole time. Some guy, I said. Some guy that I will spend the rest of my life with...

He says...

It was a one fine early morning by the dock at CCP. The usual hang out or the meeting area ng grupo for our early morning ritual ang sumagwan at sumagwan at sumagwan, and also a cold Sunday morning (Feb kasi at malamig pa) to start my day with my teammates. Akala ko nga nung umagang yun eh pangkaraniwang umaga na naman hehehe, most of the time after the training derecho uwi na kasi agad ako with my bike yun eh pag tapos makipagkulitan sa tropa at mangulit ng mga bagong recruit hehehe.. Ito din yung araw na nasilayan ko si Aleina pero mas prefer nya na tawagin syang lheng. Kahit di ko nakagawian na mag almusal sa McDo ang headkwa ng RCP eh bumuntot ako sa kanila na kasama ko si Harold, para me back-up sa pangungulit yun sa pakikipagkulitan namin ni Harold sa kanila (Lheng at Aubrey), nalaman ko ang pangalan nya, nagalit pa nga sa akin ata nung paulit ko yung pangalan nya at muntik ng mag taray.

Buti na lang at nandun din sina pareng Art at jhon (mahilig din kasi mangulit ng mga newbie) na nagaccomodate sa kanila at nagkaayaan na mag shower sa bahay nina jhon sa pandacan, kahit out of way sa akin, sumunod ako ng walang pasabi at naghintay sa tulay ng sta.ana-pandacan buti na lang at dun din ang daan nila at hindi sa kabila kung nagkataon di ako nakasunod sa bahay nina jhon hehehe… yun nung nakita ako nasupresa sila dahil di ko naman ugali na tumambay kina jhon nagkataon lang na me parang humatak sa akin na sumunod sa kanila ewan ko nga din ba kung bakit eh…

Fortunately at di naman ako tinarayan dahil nung tanungin ko yung mobile number nya binigay nya naman habang nakasakay kami sa bangka patawid ng ilog papuntang Sta. Mesa, buti na lang at pwede ang bike sa bangka. Salamat sa bagong teknolohiya nagkaroon kami ng pagkakataon na makapag -usap at higit sa lahat nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makulit sya buong araw ng linggong yun…

At dahil sa kakulitan ko dito nagsimula ang magandang Istorya ng buhay naming dalawa ni lheng na hanggang sa ngayon ay nagpapatuloy pa din…

It is negative

3rd September. I don’t want to keep my hopes so high, I might find myself flat faced on the floor. But I just want to keep track of what I am feeling right now. Today is the day that I should have my …you know…the “girl thing.” Although the signs were still not there except my mood swings. I’m worried that I am only exaggerating things since you know what I really wanted and I might mistakenly over doing it, like I don’t have my appetite, a little dizziness here and there, I’m always sleepy this past few days and I feel like throwing up.

I am not sharing this with anyone just yet. I want to be sure. I don’t want to be happy for now, I’ll save that later. This will be a BIG blow if I am wrong but at least I am the only one who knows about it. Time will tell. Patience is what I need right now.

I can’t talk more about it. I will only post this once it’s confirmed.

2:30 PM, Same day. I got bad news and I am feeling down about it. I was given a week to think about accepting job. I was hesitant and at the same time challenged about the work that I was supposed to do. Hesitant because, transferring in a new environment would be a major change in my career. Accepting it would also imply that I need to give up my gratuity pay that I should be getting in December, geez, with a few months to count, it would surely be put to waste. I would also be banned for 6 months for not finishing my 3-year contract, that’s for sure. Though, husband’s visa is an option, I will still be working illegally since the company is not on a free zone area and they won’t be able to get me a work permit due to the ban.

The new company I was considering is also something to ponder. It is located far from our current residence with no transportation provided. I was asked about how much salary I was expecting, I gave my figure but when I asked how much is the salary range they are offering for the position, depends on the qualifications – so I really wasn’t informed about it. And the last but definitely not the least, the boss is VERY strict as per her own judgment of herself and others’ which I was able to check while I was there. This took me four days to make a decision.

They told me they will be give me a week to decide which I did. They also said that they will check my options as per the status of my visa.

With my desperation to get the hell out of this god forsaken place (please excuse my language.) I’d rather deal with a difficult boss, a far away place and an empty bank account.

But luck is not really on my side. I found out that they have already chosen someone else. With the same background, immediately available and can provide them with a NOC. Damn! With a hassle-free candidate, I understand where they’re coming from.

4th September. Still feeling the signs, I was praying hard that even if wasn’t able to get the job, I was sure hoping this one would be a perfect alternative. Well, at the time of writing, all my questions were answered. I just came out of the washroom and finally there it goes…flushed in the toilet were my hopes, fears, questions, excitement.

I feel like crying today. 2 days is all I need to know everything and it’s really, really disappointing. Sometimes, life is really unfair. And it’s hard not to think bad thoughts. When you try to be contented with everything you have and you try to be happy with even little things, someone is happier than you, someone is more contented than you.

I don’t want to end this blog negatively, but I can’t. It’s just the way it is. Maybe tomorrow would be a different day for me. Perhaps there is more to come.